What's life without adventure?
NO LIFE.
Boredom is killing me.
Every starting of the week I will be longing for Friday to come. But whenever it's the weekends, I lose the excitment knowing that it would just be another usual 2 days off from work. Before you know it, it's back to the 5days work week routine before you actually got the chance to do anything productive, or anything at all.
Almost got over it completely till you came back and leave me hanging all over again. Ego booster? Ability to monopolize makes you feel good huh? To take control, to dominate, makes one feel superior huh? That's one major ego problem you've got there. Sorry to disappoint, I am not letting it affect me because I very well know what you are trying to do. You are successful in every other way that people see you but not as a person. Because the only person you care and love is yourself and respect for others is never there. Your world revolves only around you, family and work. You never really needed anyone else. Let me put it this way, you like it without strings attached. No responsibility. No commitment. Correct? Hardly ever go wrong from what I have observed.
Hey, I really think I would do very well in Psychology.
Ok, I can respect that, I think I should. I can't expect everyone's expectations or the wants in life to be the same. Just angry that you treated me like another escapade, or rather, another taxi driver of yours.
I have always been sincere to the people around me but why do they always try to play games with me? It's disheartening. Life is short everyones knows, if that's how you think you should live it, jolly well go ahead. With no dignity.
Xia xue, the well known blogger had this short section in one of her posts about death.
Imagine hor, if afterlife really exists and you look like how you were just at the end of your life, wouldn't you be super pissed off if you jumped off a building instead of taking sleeping pills to commit suicide?I must keep that in mind if I ever wanna die.Digressing even further, Mike says that he thinks that when people die, NOTHING happens.When I asked him what he means, he asked me back, "Did you ever go under (general anesthesia)?"I told him no (my nose job's one I was fully awake), and he said it is a really queer feeling, like you just stop being in existance.Nothing.Just a little part of your life was lived without you even knowing it.You wake up later and that period when you were down is just a... blank.Isn't it scary?I told him that I am mortified of death because I think that when people die, their souls are trapped inside their immobile and dysfunctional bodies, just exactly like how we are when we sometimes get the "bei gui ya" (a Chinese saying meaning 'trapped under a ghost') feeling.For those of you who have no idea what I'm talking about, sometimes, when you get really tired and you fall asleep, you wake up and you are actually conscious of your surroundings, but you just can't move your body!Not a muscle. Well, I think its possible to like twitch your fingers but that's about it.So you just sort of loll around in bed under you finally, with a might jerk, wake yourself up.It's a terrible, terrible feeling and I HATE IT! I always get it when I take afternoon naps!And what if after we die THAT happens? Except we can't even jerk ourselves awake ever again!I wonder when in that state we can actually feel PAIN? You think? What if when we die (ie break our neck) we can completely feel pain but can't move or express it!!OK I got to stop this topic and go back to hair extensions.But why so many people claim to have seen ghosts but they never ask the ghosts what happens when people die ah?!
I remembered started thinking bout death as early as Primary 4, which would still make me skip a heartbeat whenever I think about it. And I think it scared the hell out of my classmate Amanda Ee when I shared it with her, like "What the hell is this girl thinking man." It was about 2 years after my grandma's death so i suppose it wasn't directly related?
Imagine not breathing (or you could try holding your breath now), lying in your coffin rotting away, not knowing what your decendants have been up to, not aware of the things going on a few feet above you, even if there is a World War 3. So what if you are someone great in this lifetime? You would probably be forgotten in decades' time. No one would have known you existed. Even if there is such thing as reincarnation, you wouldn't remember anything from the previous lifetime. Everyone starts from the very begining. Well who knows, maybe you just stop right here after death, reincarnation is just another bullshit. Anyway, would you even know you are dead? It would probably seem to you that it's just another sleep you practically do on every other nights. No thoughts. Nothing. Yea, you probably would feel practically nothing.
On a lighter note, got a pair of tickets to the 933fm Radio Awards tomorrow from my boss. (His wife is his first girlfriend mind you! Got to see her wife's and daughter's photos and hey, not bad... Wife is pretty lor!) He bought a $2000+ Canon camera and it came with the tickets. If only it's Linkin Park's Concert instead. Guess what, Chemical romance is coming in December too! Argh... What sia... Might be going. Sort of found a khaki, but still cant decide.
Recently became quite crazy over Muse, the group. Happened to listen to quite a few of their songs and they are great! How do I put it? A little emo? Soft rock? Ha, rock music again. This is another band to look out for.
My course is ending in about 3 weeks' time, then I would have time to go back to the night run routine I used to do! I need it man. Got to put myself back into shape. And maybe squeeze in a session of kickboxing? And sweat it all out! It's so damn fun if you have never tried it before.
Now what's giving me headache is the deadline for the completion of all the assignments before the evaluation/presentation day. *Glup*
-STRESS-
Boredom is killing me.
Every starting of the week I will be longing for Friday to come. But whenever it's the weekends, I lose the excitment knowing that it would just be another usual 2 days off from work. Before you know it, it's back to the 5days work week routine before you actually got the chance to do anything productive, or anything at all.
Almost got over it completely till you came back and leave me hanging all over again. Ego booster? Ability to monopolize makes you feel good huh? To take control, to dominate, makes one feel superior huh? That's one major ego problem you've got there. Sorry to disappoint, I am not letting it affect me because I very well know what you are trying to do. You are successful in every other way that people see you but not as a person. Because the only person you care and love is yourself and respect for others is never there. Your world revolves only around you, family and work. You never really needed anyone else. Let me put it this way, you like it without strings attached. No responsibility. No commitment. Correct? Hardly ever go wrong from what I have observed.
Hey, I really think I would do very well in Psychology.
Ok, I can respect that, I think I should. I can't expect everyone's expectations or the wants in life to be the same. Just angry that you treated me like another escapade, or rather, another taxi driver of yours.
I have always been sincere to the people around me but why do they always try to play games with me? It's disheartening. Life is short everyones knows, if that's how you think you should live it, jolly well go ahead. With no dignity.
Xia xue, the well known blogger had this short section in one of her posts about death.
Imagine hor, if afterlife really exists and you look like how you were just at the end of your life, wouldn't you be super pissed off if you jumped off a building instead of taking sleeping pills to commit suicide?I must keep that in mind if I ever wanna die.Digressing even further, Mike says that he thinks that when people die, NOTHING happens.When I asked him what he means, he asked me back, "Did you ever go under (general anesthesia)?"I told him no (my nose job's one I was fully awake), and he said it is a really queer feeling, like you just stop being in existance.Nothing.Just a little part of your life was lived without you even knowing it.You wake up later and that period when you were down is just a... blank.Isn't it scary?I told him that I am mortified of death because I think that when people die, their souls are trapped inside their immobile and dysfunctional bodies, just exactly like how we are when we sometimes get the "bei gui ya" (a Chinese saying meaning 'trapped under a ghost') feeling.For those of you who have no idea what I'm talking about, sometimes, when you get really tired and you fall asleep, you wake up and you are actually conscious of your surroundings, but you just can't move your body!Not a muscle. Well, I think its possible to like twitch your fingers but that's about it.So you just sort of loll around in bed under you finally, with a might jerk, wake yourself up.It's a terrible, terrible feeling and I HATE IT! I always get it when I take afternoon naps!And what if after we die THAT happens? Except we can't even jerk ourselves awake ever again!I wonder when in that state we can actually feel PAIN? You think? What if when we die (ie break our neck) we can completely feel pain but can't move or express it!!OK I got to stop this topic and go back to hair extensions.But why so many people claim to have seen ghosts but they never ask the ghosts what happens when people die ah?!
I remembered started thinking bout death as early as Primary 4, which would still make me skip a heartbeat whenever I think about it. And I think it scared the hell out of my classmate Amanda Ee when I shared it with her, like "What the hell is this girl thinking man." It was about 2 years after my grandma's death so i suppose it wasn't directly related?
Imagine not breathing (or you could try holding your breath now), lying in your coffin rotting away, not knowing what your decendants have been up to, not aware of the things going on a few feet above you, even if there is a World War 3. So what if you are someone great in this lifetime? You would probably be forgotten in decades' time. No one would have known you existed. Even if there is such thing as reincarnation, you wouldn't remember anything from the previous lifetime. Everyone starts from the very begining. Well who knows, maybe you just stop right here after death, reincarnation is just another bullshit. Anyway, would you even know you are dead? It would probably seem to you that it's just another sleep you practically do on every other nights. No thoughts. Nothing. Yea, you probably would feel practically nothing.
On a lighter note, got a pair of tickets to the 933fm Radio Awards tomorrow from my boss. (His wife is his first girlfriend mind you! Got to see her wife's and daughter's photos and hey, not bad... Wife is pretty lor!) He bought a $2000+ Canon camera and it came with the tickets. If only it's Linkin Park's Concert instead. Guess what, Chemical romance is coming in December too! Argh... What sia... Might be going. Sort of found a khaki, but still cant decide.
Recently became quite crazy over Muse, the group. Happened to listen to quite a few of their songs and they are great! How do I put it? A little emo? Soft rock? Ha, rock music again. This is another band to look out for.
My course is ending in about 3 weeks' time, then I would have time to go back to the night run routine I used to do! I need it man. Got to put myself back into shape. And maybe squeeze in a session of kickboxing? And sweat it all out! It's so damn fun if you have never tried it before.
Now what's giving me headache is the deadline for the completion of all the assignments before the evaluation/presentation day. *Glup*
-STRESS-
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