Woke up feeling different for a change
Feeling all hyped up about what's in store for me. So many years to come, so many things waiting for me, I can't allow minor things to put me down and stop me from doing my 'thang'.
I have been an eager bunny, to grow up, to do more adult stuff. And my thinking, makes myself more mature than my peers. And boring. I am capable of bullshitting and crapping too you know. You can verify with my colleagues and boss.
Mature is good alright, no one realised I have been through alot to get myself in this state, troubled by other stuffs when my peers have only their studies to take care of. Such blessing I don't get from my childhood.
Childhood? I have long gotten over with it.
But the very few who noticed touches me when they seem to understand the condition I am in or was put under. Everyone needs to go through some hardship to make them grow. One was an Indonesian friend who had stayed with me and aunt for quite some time while working in Singapore, left a letter for me before heading off a few years back. It felt really good when someone understands and concerns about you. It was a very small gesture I did for her, I didn't know what else to do but ensure her everything will be alright when she read her friend's letter, cant remember regarding what, and started crying. She knew I am not really expressive but she felt it. She felt i cared anyway. I was there for her. Tears welled up in my eyes after reading the letter with other stuff she wrote. Completely touched. Because she cared enough to notice it. To notice me.
B was also the other who touched me with the few words he said. "Only I care." That simple. It was good enough.
Anyway I came across this immature working adult pair last night on the bus. Their subject was sweet (too sweet in fact), but for primary school students ok. Imagine their stupid small conversation I had to endure throughout my entire 20mins journey home. Not that I wanna eavesdrop but my MP3 was out of battery. Sounding so childish,was curious to see how they look like and managed to get a glimpse. So adult-like but the mentality... ermm... Some people just need to grow up. Anyway, I dont wanna seem like an old hag already when I am just 20, I wanna have fun too! Decided to enjoy this moment while I am still young, the other more adult stuff can wait and enjoyed later.
It was a good sleep last night that ended with a sweet dream. Three "important" men appeared in it. They are the people whom I used to like. The 2 Bs and M.
M was just another a few pages long chapter in my life. I decided to leave him out of the rest of it for good. I begin to believe in fate like what my boss said, it's fate that brought me to this company, to have this amazing boss. I believe M is also another amazing person I had to meet. He made me realise when you wanna do something, do it well and do it good. Do it with PASSION.
Back back back, to how I started my morning.
For the first time, rather than flipping through the papers for weekend shopping deals in town, I actually took some time to read the articles.
One is this duo who held an unconventional Gothic wedding party. What puzzles me the most is that can a couple with a difference of 14 years of age date? They started 11 years ago so that would make the woman 20 and the man 34. What a coincidence. Not that age gap this big matters to me, I was in this situation myself. And I was so naive to think so seriously about it, thinking that hey, it's possible. But that also depends who you are dealing. There are many factors for you to consider. For their case is different then. In the article the man said this sweet little thing when asked about how they managed to pull through this long and hard relationship they had, when they were constantly being separated from each other. I quote: "If you love each other, nothing is difficult, lah." Yes, love. And compromise. You don't have to say it. It's just words. Show it and let it be felt. All people who keep complaining they cant afford to fork out time for someone, look, they made effort to meet even though they are countries apart for long periods. So no excuse. Nothing difficult is going to stop you if you really want to do it. I always believe the ultimate problem is whether you want to or not.
Came across this Epi-Lasik advertisement. No cutting of cornea surgery, just laser refractive surgery so not as creepy. But the risk is still there I suppose. Might plan to go for it in the near future.
Read some work/office related article too. With the influence of M, I plan to have a career instead of just having another 9 to 5 job. For that, it's not too early to start working on it now.
Hey! I have a goal to aim for now. Not bad eh.
I have been an eager bunny, to grow up, to do more adult stuff. And my thinking, makes myself more mature than my peers. And boring. I am capable of bullshitting and crapping too you know. You can verify with my colleagues and boss.
Mature is good alright, no one realised I have been through alot to get myself in this state, troubled by other stuffs when my peers have only their studies to take care of. Such blessing I don't get from my childhood.
Childhood? I have long gotten over with it.
But the very few who noticed touches me when they seem to understand the condition I am in or was put under. Everyone needs to go through some hardship to make them grow. One was an Indonesian friend who had stayed with me and aunt for quite some time while working in Singapore, left a letter for me before heading off a few years back. It felt really good when someone understands and concerns about you. It was a very small gesture I did for her, I didn't know what else to do but ensure her everything will be alright when she read her friend's letter, cant remember regarding what, and started crying. She knew I am not really expressive but she felt it. She felt i cared anyway. I was there for her. Tears welled up in my eyes after reading the letter with other stuff she wrote. Completely touched. Because she cared enough to notice it. To notice me.
B was also the other who touched me with the few words he said. "Only I care." That simple. It was good enough.
Anyway I came across this immature working adult pair last night on the bus. Their subject was sweet (too sweet in fact), but for primary school students ok. Imagine their stupid small conversation I had to endure throughout my entire 20mins journey home. Not that I wanna eavesdrop but my MP3 was out of battery. Sounding so childish,was curious to see how they look like and managed to get a glimpse. So adult-like but the mentality... ermm... Some people just need to grow up. Anyway, I dont wanna seem like an old hag already when I am just 20, I wanna have fun too! Decided to enjoy this moment while I am still young, the other more adult stuff can wait and enjoyed later.
It was a good sleep last night that ended with a sweet dream. Three "important" men appeared in it. They are the people whom I used to like. The 2 Bs and M.
M was just another a few pages long chapter in my life. I decided to leave him out of the rest of it for good. I begin to believe in fate like what my boss said, it's fate that brought me to this company, to have this amazing boss. I believe M is also another amazing person I had to meet. He made me realise when you wanna do something, do it well and do it good. Do it with PASSION.
Back back back, to how I started my morning.
For the first time, rather than flipping through the papers for weekend shopping deals in town, I actually took some time to read the articles.
One is this duo who held an unconventional Gothic wedding party. What puzzles me the most is that can a couple with a difference of 14 years of age date? They started 11 years ago so that would make the woman 20 and the man 34. What a coincidence. Not that age gap this big matters to me, I was in this situation myself. And I was so naive to think so seriously about it, thinking that hey, it's possible. But that also depends who you are dealing. There are many factors for you to consider. For their case is different then. In the article the man said this sweet little thing when asked about how they managed to pull through this long and hard relationship they had, when they were constantly being separated from each other. I quote: "If you love each other, nothing is difficult, lah." Yes, love. And compromise. You don't have to say it. It's just words. Show it and let it be felt. All people who keep complaining they cant afford to fork out time for someone, look, they made effort to meet even though they are countries apart for long periods. So no excuse. Nothing difficult is going to stop you if you really want to do it. I always believe the ultimate problem is whether you want to or not.
Came across this Epi-Lasik advertisement. No cutting of cornea surgery, just laser refractive surgery so not as creepy. But the risk is still there I suppose. Might plan to go for it in the near future.
Read some work/office related article too. With the influence of M, I plan to have a career instead of just having another 9 to 5 job. For that, it's not too early to start working on it now.
Hey! I have a goal to aim for now. Not bad eh.
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