Connecting... ... Disconnected

There is always a song for every occasion, representing the chapters in your life, accompany you through the good and the diffcult times.

Found a recommendation for this song on a blog and it immediately hits me. This is one of them that gets to me the moment I hear it for the first time.


Communication - The Cardigans

For 27 years I’ve been trying to believe and confide in
Different people I’ve found
Some of them got closer than others
And someone wouldn’t even bother and then you came around

I didn’t really know what to call you, you didn’t know me at all
But I was happy to explain
I never really knew how to move you
So I tried to intrude through the little holes in your veins
And I saw you

But that’s not an invitation, that’s all I get
If this is communication, I disconnect
I’ve seen you, I know you but I don’t know how to connect
so I disconnect

You always seem to know where to find me and I’m still here behind you
In the corner of your eye
I’ll never really learn how to love you
But I know that I love you through the hole in the sky
Where I see you

And that’s not an invitation, that’s all I get
If this is communication, I disconnect
I’ve seen you, I know you but I don’t know how to connect
So I disconnect

Well this is an invitation, it’s not a threat
If you want communication, that’s what you get
I’m talking and talking but I don’t know how to connect
And I hold a record for being patient
With your kind of hesitation
I need you, you want me but I don’t know how to connect
So I disconnect
I disconnect


Emotions plunged straight down.
Silently.
No one discovered me.
Almost.
Almost let slip.
But I always seem to cover it up well.
Managed to jump right up only during our department dinner.


You know, sometimes it's better to indulge in self-obsession than thinking of people who doesn't value you and not love yourself at all.

There goes another wedding

Had a twirling good time, with a bit of cha-cha, last Saturday at Clarke Quay. Ohh... I love it when someone does that to me.

That evening before was my cousin's wedding at York Hotel. Was so happy for them that they finally tied the knot and tears almost flowed while watching the visuals. Probably from envy. 2 years ago he was struggling with his job earning peanuts and now look him, he can afford to marry his girl now.

I am sure this is going to be one long lasting marriage.
So are the rest of my cousins'.


So, with divorce rates soaring, choose to have a little family of your own or remain bachelorhood?

Individual choice. Why follow the trend of getting married when you know your tolerance level is not that high and your heart of giving is not that great? Now is like the century of "Every man for himself".

What do you wish to achieve, what gives you the fulfillment in life, and what is it that makes you go "I am fully utilised!". Some sort. Proudly.

It eventually boils down to two: Family or Career.

For women, most would say family is more of importance. Well I agree. However, if she is unable to find an ultimate life partner why risk it? And if she is capable enough to have a career that would keep her equally busy and satisfied why not?

As for men, the answer is obvious. Career is the core of their life! Men who are successful are attractive and of course, gives a certain degree of security. Yeah, in terms of the ability to provide for his partner. For other kinds of security, we will never know for sure. In times like this, meeting a decent, honest man is like one in a million chances. Family-oriented men are definitely, nonetheless attractive too! Love their spacious SUVs. It's so family-car =D

To have really lived life, for me, is when you have something that makes you want to give so much of yourself until there is nothing left of you, have some responsibility to shoulder that gives you a sense of satisfaction at the end of it. Especially when the "life" comes from you. It's like a glimmer of "hope", and everything else for you to live for. Life is meaningless when it's all about you and your 9-5 job, with lots of OT or not. In reality, many things are impposible without money. But with all the money in the world, what else can you do with them? It's like you came onto this earth with nothing and you are going to leave with nothing too? Thus I go for the family life. It would make me feel more complete, that I have fulfilled at least something in life. I have given what I was given before.

If this is not going to be possible, career is ultimate option then. Otherwise I would really have wasted all these years on earth. Which I don't actually quite give a damn la.

Seriously, women don't have much of a choice when it comes to choosing their partners. In fact, we are the ones who wait and get hooked by whatever guy that fancies you. Don't work out? Then that's tough luck for you. And that man moves along to find his next target. It's so much simple for men to get attached in most cases.

Good guys finish last? Right... I will be the first to snatch them up!
In fact, I don't trust good lookers.


Something to laugh about, and is rather true:
"Money can't buy love, but it improves your bargaining position."

Slipping in and out

STOP ME!

I did something utterly foolish. And no one was there to stop me.

Begining to blame everything on myself again.
If only I was able to pretend that everything was ok...

Now ignored and forgotten.


This is the, Heart-break Hotel... This is the, Heart-break Hotel...


Oh well, let it fade and slip like the sands in the hour glass in time to come.

Life is like a play. The events taking place in our lives are part of the game. Why not just play along like the rest of the crew?

Relax~ Breath...

There is such a thing as being too cautious in life! If you never try anything new or never try to do anything that seems just the slightest bit risky, you will never change your life. Toss your hesitations out of the window today and go out and do something impulsive!

[Katharine McPee - Everywhere I Go]

Speech-Handicapped

Pardon me but I tend to murmur and seem to have oral communication problem whenever I am tired, disinterested etc...

And now. My head is cracking. Don't have patience when I am sick.

This is so-not-attractive but can't help it.


Anyway, the MTV of J.Holiday's Bed could have been made sexier. What a letdown.
*Boo~

What type of Flirt are you?

I am a Flirt-Shy (damn its accurate. try yours here)

Your coyness around the male species could be misinterpreted as aloofness, so you've got to learn to conquer it and work on your flirting skills. Flirting is in fact one of the best ways to signal your interest in making friends with the opposite sex. If you close yourself off in social interactions, you'll be missing out on opportunities of finding your Mr. Right.

First ask yourself why you avoid flirting: Maybe you don't feel attractive or confident enough. Or perhaps you don't feel comfortable with your sensuality. But the only way you'll overcome your anxiety when socializing with the guys is to practice, practice, practice. Start by learning a few simple flirting tactics. One surefire technique is to work your smile: Immediately you'll appear less intimidating. Another easy way to open up is to start dishing out sincere compliments, like "Cool jacket" or "You have a really nice smile". Practice a little more, and you'll realize how fun it can be.


[Don't explain youself, cause talk is cheap.]