Connecting... ... Disconnected

There is always a song for every occasion, representing the chapters in your life, accompany you through the good and the diffcult times.

Found a recommendation for this song on a blog and it immediately hits me. This is one of them that gets to me the moment I hear it for the first time.


Communication - The Cardigans

For 27 years I’ve been trying to believe and confide in
Different people I’ve found
Some of them got closer than others
And someone wouldn’t even bother and then you came around

I didn’t really know what to call you, you didn’t know me at all
But I was happy to explain
I never really knew how to move you
So I tried to intrude through the little holes in your veins
And I saw you

But that’s not an invitation, that’s all I get
If this is communication, I disconnect
I’ve seen you, I know you but I don’t know how to connect
so I disconnect

You always seem to know where to find me and I’m still here behind you
In the corner of your eye
I’ll never really learn how to love you
But I know that I love you through the hole in the sky
Where I see you

And that’s not an invitation, that’s all I get
If this is communication, I disconnect
I’ve seen you, I know you but I don’t know how to connect
So I disconnect

Well this is an invitation, it’s not a threat
If you want communication, that’s what you get
I’m talking and talking but I don’t know how to connect
And I hold a record for being patient
With your kind of hesitation
I need you, you want me but I don’t know how to connect
So I disconnect
I disconnect


Emotions plunged straight down.
Silently.
No one discovered me.
Almost.
Almost let slip.
But I always seem to cover it up well.
Managed to jump right up only during our department dinner.


You know, sometimes it's better to indulge in self-obsession than thinking of people who doesn't value you and not love yourself at all.