Crazy little thing call love
Don't be mistaken, I have yet to have a change in status. "Yeah I wanna dance with somebody, I wanna feel the heat with somebody... with somebody who loves me". Probably cause of the high temperature of the weather lately, I am experiencing "hot flushes" already even before I hit menopause. lol.
Totally in the mood for love, just for now. And I am not going for those exhibitionist-styled.
Just met this young couple for tennis, and I say they have this 'fu qi lian'. The only time I felt myself in that situation was 5yrs ago. But surely I have moved on from there. They are in their late 20s so I am staying hopeful! Thats why I usually asks people in a relationship how/where they found their partner. i need tips man! Luck hasn't been on my side however, usually which I find myself attracted to (or finally able to make connection with) those either taken or ... he's just not that into me. I believe completely in karma so no cat fight for me. I wouldnt want to be someone who had wasted her youth on one man and later stolen by another in the future. =) (Although sometimes I do have the urge, for the sake of my happiness =x) But of course I have no control over that if it were to happen to me by some vicious woman and a heartless man.
Meanwhile, I shall for put more effort into my work. Like it that I am becoming more corporate minded. sort of. =B
And I have decided to contribute half of my salary towards having my own place, or rather sharing one with another friend, because I can no longer take anymore of those shit I have been getting and since I am unable to find someone to help me release from my misery. Tortured mentally and sometimes even physically, many times I have been thinking if only I am able to get myself a partner where I could run for shelter. I only blame myself that I am not any fitter to retaliate. I could only vent my frustration on non-living objects.
Mark those words that had came from my mouth as well as from the heart, because in time to come, you will find that it will all be happening so don't be too taken aback. And I am waiting for that day where it all comes true and when I am in more power and control. Its not incorrect...
[left off as draft and here it is... until I find time to continue again. which probably I cant remember what I had wanted to say already.]
Totally in the mood for love, just for now. And I am not going for those exhibitionist-styled.
Just met this young couple for tennis, and I say they have this 'fu qi lian'. The only time I felt myself in that situation was 5yrs ago. But surely I have moved on from there. They are in their late 20s so I am staying hopeful! Thats why I usually asks people in a relationship how/where they found their partner. i need tips man! Luck hasn't been on my side however, usually which I find myself attracted to (or finally able to make connection with) those either taken or ... he's just not that into me. I believe completely in karma so no cat fight for me. I wouldnt want to be someone who had wasted her youth on one man and later stolen by another in the future. =) (Although sometimes I do have the urge, for the sake of my happiness =x) But of course I have no control over that if it were to happen to me by some vicious woman and a heartless man.
Meanwhile, I shall for put more effort into my work. Like it that I am becoming more corporate minded. sort of. =B
And I have decided to contribute half of my salary towards having my own place, or rather sharing one with another friend, because I can no longer take anymore of those shit I have been getting and since I am unable to find someone to help me release from my misery. Tortured mentally and sometimes even physically, many times I have been thinking if only I am able to get myself a partner where I could run for shelter. I only blame myself that I am not any fitter to retaliate. I could only vent my frustration on non-living objects.
Mark those words that had came from my mouth as well as from the heart, because in time to come, you will find that it will all be happening so don't be too taken aback. And I am waiting for that day where it all comes true and when I am in more power and control. Its not incorrect...
[left off as draft and here it is... until I find time to continue again. which probably I cant remember what I had wanted to say already.]
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